True Love or Creepy Stalker?

Excerpts from my 2004-2005 journal.  True Love or Creepy Stalker Girl?  You be the judge...

Wednesday, June 2nd, 2004
"But one other thing is that her brother is really cute!!!!! :)  I don't tell anyone though.  His name is Nathaniel and he goes to my school so I see him in the halls every once in a while."

Wednesday, July 28, 2004
"Nathaniel broke his arm yesterday. He was riding his bike and I guess he fell off.  I wonder if he cried.  I can't picture him crying.  It just seems weird.  Maybe I should send him a get well card but he would figure out it was me.  Oh well I'll just write a fake one here.
                      Hope you get well soon!! :)
                                               Love,
                                               A Friend
PS- You're still cute with a cast/ sling"

Sunday, August 29, 2004
"Nathaniel looked so good.  He looks good in anything.  All he was wearing were jeans and a long sleeved t-shirt."

Sunday, October 10, 2004
"The deacons were on a much better behavior except for Nathaniel.  He kept making burp/ fart noises and answering questions really stupidly."

Monday, December 6, 2004
"I think Nathaniel likes me because he sat with us and played with Seth and stuff and that might not sound like he does but you just had to be there."

Saturday, January 15, 2005
"Brooke said that he (Nathaniel) jumps on top of the cars and jumps from car to car and does stuff like that.  He is one out of control kid.  Not like the rest of his family."

Sunday, February 20, 2005
"On the way back home we talked more about nothing pretty much.  He took my purple squishy pillow and started playing with it and  I told her (one of my school friends) that if he put his head on it, I might be able to make some money off of it."

Sunday, March 13, 2005
"Nathaniel wasn't that cute today."

Wednesday, March 30, 2005
"Today is Nathaniel's birthday...I don't know if I like him or not now.  Today I think I started to again.  But I don't want to.  I just can't help myself.  I still can't tell if he likes me.  Maybe if I find out if he likes me I will be able to decide if I like him or not.  He's a nice, cute, funny guy.  I just don't know."

Sunday, July 10, 2005
Taking place at a Youth Conference dance... "I turned them all down.  Some of the people I said "no" to I didn't even know.  I don't remember who was asking me but Nathaniel came over and just pushed the other guy away and asked me.  It was so funny.  I had to say no though since I turned everyone else away.... After I sat down Nathaniel came and asked again so I decided I would because it was the last song.  It was more fun dancing with him.  He talked more and got a little more into it... As we were dancing, Austin Eckel walked by and says to Nathaniel "So you finally got her to dance with you?"  He didn't respond.  I think he was a little embarrassed.  Does that mean he likes me if he was trying to get me to dance with him?  I don't know."

Our first dance.  My favorite part of the picture is that we're the same height.

More journals to come at a later time.  I think they're great.  Even if they're embarrassing, I don't really care!!

Randomness Is Good

Now that I have joined the 21st century and got a smartphone I sometimes forget I still take pictures.  Here's a little catching up...through pictures...in no particular order.

I found a baby!

A boy walking his parrot to class....

This....is just awesome.

My employee picture in front of the Wellness Center.  That's how fantastic I am.

Skype date night!!!  And Meredith as the awkward third wheel....

Best boyfriend ever!  Sent me some very comfy sweats.   I wear them all the time now.

There ya have it.  My life in pictures.  Minus any food pictures because I post too many of those....

Long Distance Relationships= Suck

Whoever said long distance relationships were hard was sooooo........right.  But wrong at the same time.  But mostly right.  They kind of suck just a wee little bit.  I can't make up my mind.

Even though they're hard because all you can do is talk for hours, they're kind of great because all you can do is talk for hours.  Can I have a "hip, hip hooray!!!" for Verizon to Verizon calling?

Anyways, I'm not going to complain.  It's just what life has dealt us and we're working through it day by day.  Two months have now gone by and only one left.  We're in the home stretch now!!

Another wedding?!

Sheesh, what's up with all my friends getting married?!  There's been sooooo many this summer!

Alexis gets married next week (post to come on the awesome present I'm making her) and we had her "bridal shower" last weekend.  It's a pretty chill group so we just went to Red Robin for dinner and then to her friend, Lindsi's house for games and a bonfire afterwards.  Some of her high school friends hadn't met Marc so he joined us for dinner and then we forced him to stay home with the future in-laws while we took Alexis for ourselves for a few hours.

Hillary, Alexis, Myself

My roommate, Jamie, from over a year ago got married a few weeks ago as well. 

Jamie and Brian Judd

And I could go on.  I think there'll be a total of 6 friends tying the knot this summer.  Crazy stuff, marriage is.

Busy Tonight!: A New Philosophy on Dating

People are often surprised by the fact that I don't go on many dates.  Don't get me started on why, I have no idea.  Ask the boys, not me.  This is not a post to complain about a lack of dates.  This is a post about my new philosophy of dating.  My new and improved dating rules.  I haven't really had dating rules before, so anything I do must be improved!  Now, here's where my new rule stems from.  A devotional given by Sister Elaine S. Dalton, October 11, 2011 at BYU-Idaho.  I was in attendance at this devotional.  It's entitled Dare Great Things.  It's interesting because at the time, I was still deciding whether or not to go to Peru.  She talked a lot about stepping out of our comfort zones and all I could think of was Peru.  Dating was not on my mind.  Then, a few weeks ago, I remembered this devotional and what Sister Dalton counseled on dating.  I'm going to now share part of her address with you, my faithful blog readers.

"Now for my discovery about dating—nothing has changed really. And it’s precisely because you haven’t changed. You see the principle is that the structure is perfectly designed to get the results it gets. Let me illustrate this principle. Take this potato peeler—which you have to be familiar with here in Rexburg! See how it works. It is perfectly designed to get these results! Even this little point is designed perfectly to remove the eyes of the potatoes and look at these results. So in order to get results or dates here on this campus or any campus or anywhere there are young single adults, you have to redesign the structure for the intended results. And of course that means you must determine, and I mean seriously determine just what results you really want—really! So instead of talking to you about marriage and family, I am going to start on a more elementary level. Let’s just focus on getting dates. Dates for the purpose, of course, of finding an eternal companion, but let’s do first things first! Because you certainly can’t marry, and become parents of a beautiful family, unless you actually go on a date (probably a lot of dates). So let’s start there. I am going to suggest a structure change.
 
Young women—stop hanging out. Stop competing with each other in a group for the attention of the available men in the room. Make yourself scarce. The boys won’t notice for a while and they’ll keep hanging out and then all of a sudden they’ll say—“Hey where are the girls?” Then they will huddle and brainstorm about whom to text to come and join them. When the text comes, don’t go join them—just text back: “Busy tonight.”

Then wait till they call you and personally ask you to go on a date with them. Not to hang out or congregate with a lot of others, just the two of you and perhaps one other couple—on a date. According to Elder Dallin H. Oaks, this is what this means, “Hanging out consists of numbers of young men and young women joining together in some group activity. It is very different from dating…Dating is pairing off to experience the kind of one-on-one association and temporary commitment that can lead to marriage in some rare and treasured cases.”


So what's my new rule?  No more Friday night hanging out.  I'm either on a date, or curled up at home by myself doing homework.  What constitutes hanging out versus a date?  Well I want at least 24 hours notice.  I might bend slightly up to 12 hours, but preferably 24.  If someone wants to take me out, then they can plan something in advance.  I deserve at least that much, don't I?  I'm not going to be the last minute call because some boy is bored at 9:00 at night and decides then that he should be doing something more than sitting at home on a Friday night.  Now, this applies for Friday nights only...and maybe Saturday depending on the circumstance.  I'm perfectly fine with someone wanting to do something spontaneous on a weekday.  Honestly, I have a harder time planning those because you never know how homework is going to go.  So a random ice cream trip, walk around town, or movie is perfectly acceptable...just not on Friday night :) 

Call me crazy.  I certainly think I am.  If I thought I didn't get dates before, I'm definitely not expecting many now.  And trust me, it's going to be hard to decline something fun on Friday night just because I was invited later than I've set as an acceptable time.  BUT, with time, maybe something will pay off.  And if not, I'll find someone somewhere else...and my homework will get done early :)

(If interested, you can read her full address here.)

104% Senior

Two tests in two days and I've scored 104% on both.  That's how I roll.  Tomorrow I have a beast of an Anat & Phys test that I should be studying for.  I think I would pee my pants if I pulled a 104% on that one as well (this teacher gives bonus, so it's possible!!...just not likely)

As a side note, I registered for classes today and it's the first day of registration!!  That's reserved for people with 110 credits or more.....oh my goodness where has time gone?  When did I get that many credits?!  When did I become a senior?  Anyone have ideas for what I should do with my life, because I'm pretty much stumped.  And as a sad side note, I think I'll be here three more semesters instead of two like I was planning.  Being a super senior for one semester won't be that bad, will it???

Also, I was thinking how old people seemed when they were juniors and seniors in college.  When I was younger I saw girls in my ward/ stake go to college and was totally baffled when they weren't married their first year away.  I couldn't believe they could make it that far into college without getting married!  Oh boy.  I sure am glad I don't put the same judgments on myself as I did them haha  I'm perfectly content with the single life at the moment.... but I won't turn down any dates either :)