No One Ever Told Me...

I think I'm going to need a new section of my blog entitled "Things No One Ever Told Me" dedicated to me growing up and learning that life is not always what it seems and people lie.  And I mean this in a good way.

No one ever told me being engaged makes you doubt yourself in ways you never thought possible.  They never told me I would feel completely inadequate.  They never told me it's hard.  Maybe they did.  I probably wouldn't have listened.  But I don't think anyone ever told me.

It was supposed to be butterflies and roses.  I'm supposed to be happy all the time and have a countdown calendar on my phone, facebook and in my room telling me exactly how many days until I change my name.  I'm supposed to have my colors picked and my pinterest board filled with little crafty things to make a reception look cute.  I'm supposed to be the happiest girl in the world with not a care in the world.  With nothing but the best ahead.  Nothing can go wrong and there isn't a cloud in the sky.

Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled to be getting married to a fantastic man.  The perfect man for me actually!  But gosh darn it, being engaged is hard!  And it's hard for reasons I wouldn't have even imagined before this point.  And I feel like marriage will be the same.  And then children.  And then teenagers.  And then getting old.  It's never ending.

No one ever told me.  I think it will be my new life motto.