Burnt Toast

I don't usually have freak-outs.  I'd like to think I'm a fairly stable person who can control her emotions.  I don't really get sad or depressed, I just get slightly more stressed than usual.  I rarely cry and if I do it's for 2 minutes and then nothing else comes. 

Well, Monday was kind of a break down day.  The first in quite a long time.  I don't even know what it was.  Well, it was a lot of little things added up.  My roommate likes to call them "burnt toast" days.  A day where even burnt toast will make you cry.  Stress was just piling up on me from school and life.  Trying to figure out what to do next semester, where to live, if I should take classes, where I should work, etc etc etc.  From the moment I got to work that day I was stressed and bitter for no reason at all.  I just didn't want to talk to any more angry parents and students.  Then, I almost started crying in my sewing class because I couldn't get this stupid sample piece to look right and it was seriously not a big deal at all.  Burnt toast.  And then I had a total meltdown at home and of course, a girl from a group had to come pick some stuff off and my eyes were clearly red and puffy.  Now she probably thinks I'm a crazy emotional girl.  I'm not.  Honestly, I can't even remember the last time this happened.  I don't even think I had a freak out in Peru ever!

But now I'm done and over it.  I think I'm back to normal.......

There's a week left of school and classes are winding down.  Thankfully, two classes ended on Tuesday but I still have quite a bit of work left in the others.  I just had my lab kinesiology exam and that was....interesting.  Thankfully it was a partner test and we convinced him to pick our partners for us.  I HATE picking groups for things.  I feel like I'm picking my grade and I'm always sure I'll pick the worst person in the class.  Also, it's like picking teams for gym class and no one likes being last so it's just easier if the professor picks.  I think my partner and I did decent but definitely not my best test.  On the upside, I have a 97.3% in the class so I can afford to miss a few points :)

In a week it will all be done.  I didn't think I could do another semester but I will be back in the winter.  Yup, no China.  Don't ask me why.  Don't even talk to me about it.  I'm upset that I'm not going but it just was not responsible for me to go right now.  Maybe sometime in the future.

Peace out, boy scout.